I have this queer habit of mine that propelled me into a solitary life. As a kid I knew I was different from others. I tend to be alone not because I’m shy but because I want to be left to my own devices. I find it hard to have common ground with people. I’m not the outgoing type, not one for gossips or idle talk. I want to withheld my emotions and keep my life private, I don’t relish the idea of being vulnerable especially to people who can’t understand me. Although there were times I’ve made friends, they soon end as soon as the year ends, when I graduated, or when I moved to a different place. I am not really the type to reach out for someone.
I haven’t been into a lot of relationships. Seriously. They must have known I was alien to their species. I am the type that doesn’t fall in love easily because I am searching for something authentic. Something that is akin to the union of the mind and soul.
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