If I can only go back in time and spare an advice to my younger self, I would tell her to never rush in love.
I would tell her that it was better to be single and alone than to be with someone who can only offer her a temporary love - an uncertain future.
I would tell her that just because the one you love told you "he loves you back" to never believe it all of a sudden.
Because heartache will surely be certain once she discovers that she's just his temporary love. A past time. That he has nothing to offer.
Because we both know that we want a long and lasting love. We want someone who'll bring us to the altar and pledge his love - mind, body and soul.
We want a grand future not a lovely past time. Sometimes, in the loneliness of the night, we soon discover that we are the only ones capable of actually loving ... Read More
13
Nov2018
Dear Love,
You forbid me to ask about the past because you believe that it has nothing to do with us. But why won't you allow me to ask of our future?
Is it because our future is uncertain and that you already know, you and I won't last any longer?
Is it because you are planning on leaving me behind? You can't say it outright and the easiest way is to not talk of the bleak future?
But what about me, my love? You turned all my hopes of our future to muck. Future, Security, Commitment, Fidelity, Marriage & Love. Where thou Art?
November 13, 2018themonochromereaper
10
Aug2017
We could be a lot of things if we so desired:
Outshining the rocks living a mundane life,
Undaunted by the pressures
But stagnation leaves us teary-eyed.
Shining so brightly at the end of the storm,
The rainbow leads us to our safety;
Settling all our anxieties,
Leaving it all behind like breadcrumbs –
Remnants of the past.
All we need to do
Is be resolute in our judgment
Instead of staying confused –
Unable to decide.
I can only hope we stay together
And enjoy the remaining years
We have left in our short lives.
For we can be anything but immortals.
Only our legacy stays after we die.
August 10, 2017themonochromereaper
18
Jul2017
I plan to create a place for myself
Not only in your heart
But also in your mind.
For I'm not a shadow that will hide
In a used vacated space.
I wanted to be seen and loved
For what I really am
Instead of stepping and molding myself
In the shoes left by someone else.
Living in an illusion as a rebound
Is not part of who or what I am.
For I know,
I'm much more than that.
One way for me to avoid
Becoming like that, my love,
Is by understanding & accepting
Your great connection to someone else
Before we even met.
It is the first liberating step I have to take
For that is something I can never change.
Anyways, I will love you no matter what.
I will nurture the love
I've sown inside your heart
And watch it thrive in your care,
For that's only fair.
So the negative thoughts
That somehow crossed my mind
From time to time just dissipates.
It evanesce in thin air whenever
I remember the promise you've declared.
So there's nothing left for me to despair,
I know I ... Read More
July 18, 2017themonochromereaper
13
Jun2017
Dedicated to the girl from my past.
I cannot coerce myself to loathe you,
It is supposed to be my proclivity,
Yet for an unknown reason, I can't.
I wish I can overlook our tragic past
So we can remain as intimate friends;
For us to behold one another afresh
But, it does not maneuver that way.
For some obscured explanations
You opted to haunt me, sometimes,
When you seem to remember me,
Blithely reminiscing our euphoric past;
And whenever you do, these deep-
Seated memories I have of you keep
Rushing back just like unlocking
The covert arcane Pandora's box.
You told me you yearned to see me,
But I can't compel myself to see you.
Else these overwhelming emotion
That I have tried to forget all these
Years might threaten to resurface.
If only a day will come that we
Could be blissful without recalling
All those unpleasant memories.
However, even if we're far apart
And doesn't have frequent contact
You'll always have a place in my heart.
© 2017 Mel Joy (themonochromereaper.wordpress.com) All Rights Reserved
June 13, 2017themonochromereaper
02
Jun2017
I dedicate this to the beautiful soul who still believes in love yet circumspect in starting relationships.
With all his acquired fame and fortune,
Nobody from the crowd would have known
He was still chained by his brooding past,
Ever since he was suddenly left to be alone.
He toiled almost every day and night,
Focusing on becoming a prodigious success
Yearning for someone to hug him tight
And be with him so he won't writhe in bed.
He now sees everything in black and white,
Not letting anyone get too close with him
But he's still fervently hoping that one day,
He'll fall in love with someone who truly loves him.
He craves to find someone unfeigned,
In this contemporary world populated by fakes
Seeking for that solitary and noble woman,
That doesn't relish playing mind games.
2017 Mel Joy (themonochromereaper.wordpress.com) All Rights Reserved
June 2, 2017themonochromereaper
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